When he was 17, Clay Shrout killed his family and took his classmates hostage in 1994. After 24 years and 8 months in prison, he appeared before Kentucky’s parole board.
Megan Vogel, Cincinnati

CINCINNATI – After nearly an hour of questioning, Clay Shrout cried at his parole board hearing Wednesday.

Parole board member Lee VanHoose asked: “Do you think you deserve to be paroled?”

“I don’t think I deserve to be alive. I don’t mean that in a weird suicidal way. I hate what happened and I hate the way my life has turned out. It started out bad and it got worse, and I made it worse,” he said. “I don’t like the word ‘deserve’ because I still don’t feel OK about what I’ve done.”

When he was 17, Clay Shrout killed his family and took his classmates hostage in 1994. After 24 years and 8 months in prison, he appeared before Kentucky’s parole board.

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During most of the hearing, Shrout was collected and matter-of-fact as he was questioned by the two-member panel. They didn’t reach a decision Wednesday. The full nine-member board will meet Monday and decide whether the 42-year-old should be released.

For the first time publicly, Shrout recounted the crime that left Boone County and particularly Ryle High School stunned.

Shrout claims he was sexually abused

He claimed the “origin” of killings stemmed from sexual abuse he suffered at the hands of his mother. Abuse, he said, he didn’t come to terms with until after he was in prison.

He didn’t offer specifics, but told the parole board member via video conference, that the abuse started when he was baby and would sometimes occur in the bath. He said it stopped while he was still a child.

“My father did find out about it at one point, but chose to ignore it, chose not to do anything about it,” Shrout said.

Shrout said he had told this information only to other people in prison. He didn’t mention it during any of the investigations in 1994.

“I had blocked that out of my head for a long time,” Shrout said.

He said that beyond that, there was no other abuse in his home, but said he and his parents were arguing frequently in the time leading up to the killings over school issues. He said he was drinking and taking LSD on a regular basis.

Shrout said he never sought any mental health, behavioral or substance abuse counseling in prison beyond one visit with a psychologist.

Shrout said he visited a therapist when he was a child and it didn’t do any good.

“The experience in my life has been that any time there’s a problem, if it needs to be fixed, I’ve got to figure out a way to fix it on my own,” Shrout said.

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‘They would be happier dead’

The parole board members asked him to recount what happened the day he killed his family.

“What I did was I killed four human beings,” he said. “I murdered my mother and I murdered my father and I murdered my two sisters. After that, I went to school with the intention of drawing the police out to have the police shoot me and kill me.”

The parole board pressed him on why he would kill his innocent sisters.

“What was going through my head, though it is not really rational, was that they would be happier being dead … considering everything that was getting ready to happen, considering both their parents would be dead, considering their brother did it.

“That doesn’t make a lot sense now, but what I did doesn’t make a lot of sense,” Shrout said. “I don’t feel particularly good about that happening.”

As for his parents, Shrout said: “I do honestly still have some issues with them.”

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Shrout became Christian and has had a clean record ever since

Shrout repeatedly said he was sorry for what he did, but said the things he did could not be undone.

“They’re dead and they’re not going to be undead. They’re not going to stop being dead,” he said. “It doesn’t matter how bad I feel about it now…there’s nothing you can do to make it better.”

During his imprisonment, Shrout has learned carpentry and car repair. The parole board also praised him for helping other inmates complete their GEDs. He hasn’t had any disciplinary issues in prison since 2002; he said that was after he became a Christian.

If released, Shrout said members of church in Tennessee who run an inmate program were willing to help him.

As part of a plea deal to avoid the death penalty, Shrout pleaded guilty to gunning down his family.

A judge declared he was “guilty, but mentally ill,” and he was sentenced to 25 years to life in prison.

The two parole board members who spoke to Shrout Wednesday deliberated privately for about 15 minutes. They either didn’t agree on whether to grant parole or couldn’t agree on how long Shrout should have to wait for another opportunity at parole.

Monday morning, the full parole board will meet and make a final decision.

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